August 25, 2007 @8:28 PM
I dunno why things aren't falling into place.. The first one was about the dream and Louie wherein I thought I have a thing for him, but calling me a sister was a big help, it helped me realize that I wasn't into him.. And it felt really great.. I don't have to worry about things anymore, I just need to think about myself and the things that I should do for myself..
Another one was this early morning, experiencing failure is really a NO, NO for me but I don't have any choice but to accept it and move forward for there are a lot of opportunities waiting for me.. I was depressed for the fact that I should have done better but I did not. I'm glad that Philip gave me a chance to prove myself that I am also qualified for the job and this time I'll do everything I can to make it and excel in class, love my job and co-workers. It was really great that my new friends in the training gave me a lot of encouragement and trust for it helped me do my thing.. I really appreciate them and I cherish them now.. They're nice people.. Akim, Joanne, Saiko, Rose, Clark, Dj, Aphryl, Lhen, and other.. They're so nice, and I love them.. Hehe!
♥ you and i both loved
August 22, 2007 @9:17 AM
I reviewed all my testimonials since 2004 and the only testimonial that made me write on my blog is written last march 5, 2004.. It was then, I realized that it’s now just a memory, everything seems to be left behind. The friendship that has been established before was now a big messed up memory. I dunno, was I the reason of ending that friendship? I wanna make it up with him and gain his trust again. But how? I knew I was wrong, but how can I face him if he doesn’t even want to face me.. It’s been very terrible, we had a promise to each other, but the wind took it away.. I dunno what will happen in the future, but the thing that I wanted now is to reconcile and to be friends with him again… =c
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@9:10 AM
Hai, what’s the matter with people? There’s a lot of questions running in my mind.. Why out of a sudden everything goes wrong? I know things will go well soon, but what if it does not? How will I deal with the things that would possibly happen? Can I handle things my way? Will everything fall into place? Am I gonna take chances and do the move? Will I be visible to their sight? Am I gonna make things happen? Can I give the proper answers? Or I’ll just say everything that’s running in my head? Things like that.. I know that there are things that really need to be discussed.. But how am I supposed to act to that? I know that crying is not the answer that’s why I’m not a crybaby.. But things happen and I don’t know why, it’s so shitty that I’m crying for simple stuffs.. I dunno if I’m still the person everyone knows and the person who knows myself.. Things changed really and so do I.. I’m really the kind of person who cherish the people around me, I can deal with everybody, but why am I not complete though I know that I am happy? Maybe I really wanted to experience having someone in my life, someone that would make me feel complete.. But when? If that happens, I only want one person to be the one making me feel complete, and yea.. It’s really him.. But it’s just really impossible for us to be together.. We like each other of course coz we won’t establish friendship if we don’t like each other right? But in terms of a relationship level? Will things flow the same? I don’ know and I’m scared of taking risks.. That’s my biggest weakness.. Yea, I’m weak when It comes to person I love.. Just like crying, it was really beyond my personality… But when it comes to those people I love and treasure I’ll surely cry.. Maybe because I don’t wanna lose them, and because they’re my strengths.. Well, anyway, I’ve gone a lot of things and I hope that things will fall into place, the proper and right place.. I also hope that the person I love realizes that he’s also in love with me.. Ahaha! Imagination’s burst… Hmmm..
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