August 22, 2007 @9:10 AM
Hai, what’s the matter with people? There’s a lot of questions running in my mind.. Why out of a sudden everything goes wrong? I know things will go well soon, but what if it does not? How will I deal with the things that would possibly happen? Can I handle things my way? Will everything fall into place? Am I gonna take chances and do the move? Will I be visible to their sight? Am I gonna make things happen? Can I give the proper answers? Or I’ll just say everything that’s running in my head? Things like that.. I know that there are things that really need to be discussed.. But how am I supposed to act to that? I know that crying is not the answer that’s why I’m not a crybaby.. But things happen and I don’t know why, it’s so shitty that I’m crying for simple stuffs.. I dunno if I’m still the person everyone knows and the person who knows myself.. Things changed really and so do I.. I’m really the kind of person who cherish the people around me, I can deal with everybody, but why am I not complete though I know that I am happy? Maybe I really wanted to experience having someone in my life, someone that would make me feel complete.. But when? If that happens, I only want one person to be the one making me feel complete, and yea.. It’s really him.. But it’s just really impossible for us to be together.. We like each other of course coz we won’t establish friendship if we don’t like each other right? But in terms of a relationship level? Will things flow the same? I don’ know and I’m scared of taking risks.. That’s my biggest weakness.. Yea, I’m weak when It comes to person I love.. Just like crying, it was really beyond my personality… But when it comes to those people I love and treasure I’ll surely cry.. Maybe because I don’t wanna lose them, and because they’re my strengths.. Well, anyway, I’ve gone a lot of things and I hope that things will fall into place, the proper and right place.. I also hope that the person I love realizes that he’s also in love with me.. Ahaha! Imagination’s burst… Hmmm..
♥ you and i both loved