August 26, 2005 @12:29 PM
Is it too early for me to wake up!?! But I dunno... I dunno why I woked up so early... Something's been bothering me for quite a while... I dunno why so sudden that problem's keep coming back when you've been very happy in your life.. I thought I will not be bothered about other things... This is freaking crazy.... I know I shouldn't be bothered about this thing... But I really don't know... I pity who??? You??? Ohhh... I'm having a hard time thinking about this.... But I should stop thinking... The case is not getting better... And in fact... I am happy with what I am experiencing right now.... How? With whom? When? Do I have to elaborate that??? Yes?? No??? Hehehe.. I don't think so.. It's for you to find out... hehehe!! Selfish??? Huh??? Hahahaha!! No.. I'm not... It's just that... I am a secretive person.. plus... I am also a PRIVATE person... ???????????? ...... Hahahahaha!! Uhmmm... I am also a bit lonesome,though.. hehehe.. I'm really weird huh?!?! hehehe.. I know... Sigh... I wanna be with that person, but yet... I'm stil afraid of rejection, for love to fall back.. For everything.. Even though he keeps on telling me that it's not the physical aspect he's looking for but it's the inner beauty he found in me... Whoahhh... Is this true??? OK!!! The truth is that i'm in Love... and really hooked up... But... Sighhhhh.. I've got loads of BUT's.... I'm already happy but still there are a lot of questions that needs an answer... Sooner or Later... I'll have an answer to all of those questions... Bad or Good... I have to understand it... Truth hurts.. yea, really... But I am already preparing for that stuff, that's the only thing that I have to do... And if he's really true in everything he had said... The feelings, everything... Then,,, All I have to do is thank God for he has given me such person who'll be there for me through thick and thin?!?!?! Hehehe.. Uhmmm... I'm still hoping that all of this things that's happening to me is true... Cos for whatever reason it is.. I'm just really afraid of the possible things that could happen... I might get hurt,,, But it's part of reality... And I should face it.. It's part of the trials that I should face for me to be strong..... I know that God is always there to give me strength... I love God... And... I love you,too.... Ayiiieeeeeeee.... Hahahahhahaa!! Damn!! Hahahahahahhahaha!!
♥ you and i both loved